Once&for all, I'm going to do this.I really don't know why.
But I have mixed feelings right now.
I don't know how I'm feeling right now. I really don't know, so quit asking.
Maybe I still love him. Maybe I still want him.
But those words he said were like blades of knives ready to pierce my heart with the right aim.
It's hard for me to accept him; not that I'm saying he wants me back.
But even if I were to still want him back. I'll erase that feeling and think about all the good things that can come by without him.
Eg. my girlfriends (oh they are soo the love), my best friend (inevitably true), my other friends (can't live without 'em), &all whom I love.
He has brought me to a path where it's my choice to move forward or turn around&start anew. And I choose to turn around&start anew(:
I will leave my past behind because I've been prepared.
And him being my past, I will let him go.
And when I have moved forward, I won't look back.
Not anymore.
Like they say, "If you love him, let him go."
I just want to say this last few words, probably my last few.
Dear Nuri,Although my heart has been torn into a million pieces&the anger in me still hasn't recede, I would like to thank you for everything that you've done for me. I will remember all those good&innocent memories and forget all those unhappy past. Not only that, I will cherish them. I will cherish you. But you are my past. You are the one that has made me realise that this is not the life I want to be in. And with that, I will let you go&find your true happiness. Take A Chance On A Happy Ending. Because that's what I'm doing. Somehow, I know that deep down, I still love you. Even if it's after a thousand years. And even if I don't, I'll still know that I loved you. I just hope you don't forget me.With love,Sufie.Because even if you think it was the end, it really isn't(:
There, I've cleared it all. May you all know how I felt. haha.
And Amira,
thanks for this.
Keep in mind: the road will be difficult. As in any healthy relationship, you will have your share of conflicts, some tiny, some big. Remember to be true to yourself, and try to abandon any significant selfishness. A relationship is a matter of team work.
xoxo
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