ehh, alamakk. lama nya i didn't post.
anyway, i guess i've been too busy laa. hmm, alot of things have been happening. i'm just really confused right now. really, i am. swear. i'm not stressed because of schoolwork. the stress is from non-academic related topics.
&seriously, i really don't know. i'm not the best person around, but i know everyone has the potential to be(: i guess.
take care yo.
xoxo
9:22 PM
There goes my alarm.woke up at 8.30am. went to school. went to geylang. went home. slept.
Purely speechless.how would you feel if someone you trusted loses your trust? Some feel hurt, disappointed.. I'm just speechless. I don't know how i feel. Basically 'cause, I know she's like that. But somehow, i'm not angry, not hurt, not that disappointed. Once again, speechless.
She seems so innocent in my eyes. Could it just be an act? If so, she's doing very well. Everything i've done for her. Sacrificed for her? Oh wells, perhaps i might have done this to someone therefore, this is what i get. But i won't let this pull me down. Not one inch. I will move on with my life. With who i'm happy with..
My own sister. My own sister betrayed me.
xoxo
8:43 PM
This is An Absolute Miracle.what a rare, rare, rare moment. you see me posting
twice in
one week. HAHA. oh wells. that's pretty amazing. had Perkemahan Bahasa which is from 8am-3pm. tarian started at 1pm. so, had to meet nabila at bedok macs at 7am. set my alarm = 6am, the night before. my alarm went off. switched on my phone &reset my alarm to 6.30am. msged nabila to meet at 7.15am. haha! i was of course, late. by 15mins according to mr & mrs bunny.
i really have no comments for the malay camp.
tarian was fun. ashriqah broke down because of the stress. haha! funny. well, SHE found it stressful coz she made alot of mistakes due to the changing of WHERE THE AUDIENCE WAS. haha. everyone was confused of course. but i don't think it was something to cry about. well, different people, different perspective.
after that, had long bus rides. liza ajak-ed us to go tamp but in the end she went home. we went to find make-up &accesories for tarian. mashita wanted to buy fish. HAHA. decided to head to parkway but in the end we went to bedok to by the hairpins.
then we went home, finally. Syaza called her dad using my phone. HER DAD WAS IN INDONESIA! now.. how am i gonna explain it to mummy? haha. ohwells.
i can't wait for the 31st(:
oh yeah, lyz &mas made this stuck in my head. more of mas but nvm, it's still in my head.
Itu sumer tak penting.Yang penting rambut kerinting.Mesti digunting.then, they came up with another one.Nak hisap rokok.Mesti di bawah pokok.Sebelah ayam berkokok.Lepas tu kita mabuk.Belum hisap rokokRambut dah berhabuk.Mengarut nak mampus. haha. but i love them anw. mashie especially(: loves-
xoxo
9:45 PM
NEVER TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTEDseriously. mummy went to Umrah. &im left alone with dad&on weekends .. with my bro too. yeah. i admit im one hell of a spoilt brat - in a MUCH better version. yeah, i do certain chores. certain does not include washing the laundry, ironing my oh so dreadful school uniform with
6 pleads. &tidying the living room. my room.. well, that's an exception. mummy's coming back this saturday. &i have a tarian performance at night. gotta rushie rushrush.
yeapp. been having practices these few days. what the tiring. ohwells. mengikut firasat kan, aku rasa kami ada masalah. hais. i just don't know what the hell is going on with me. i need serious therapy. exercise therapy. real good one(: haha.
&i really find it amusing how people know my password.
ADILAH! haha. i'm sorry, it's really amusing. where , when did you see me?! haha. i really want to know.
Ahmad, yeahhh. kekek, whatever.
Reyza, haha. deep? hmm, i see(:
nabila, y'know.. i don't know you know. haha.
DIYANA! hahaha. see you during practices &take care of your knees dearie, you can adjust how you land(: haha. we got nicer steps :p
ANNISA ! i miss you larrr. &i know how you feel. don't worry, it'll all be alright.
xoxo
8:31 PM
No, I'm NOT a Lesbian.i shall answer Ahmad's question, whoever he is. No, i'm really not a lesbian. I'm just being out of the ordinary. apparently, i'm TOO out of the ordinary aye? well, everyone should keep an open mind especially in a world like ours. but then again, who am i too judge? hell to the saying "Don't judge a book by its cover." coz you KNOW you will. even i do it, inFRONT of the person. &that, i won't deny. all i'm saying is, think before you judge. because you know you are not perfect yourself. am i right to say that?
people have feelings. some can control, &some others can't. who are we to force? God? i don't even think we're a milestone close to that. but oh whatever, i'm just a growing girl. like any other, i'm still searching my true self.
i really don't know. this, brings me to another question, am i blind to see that he's an ass? Yes, i am. well, i was. absence makes the heart grow fonder, that i believe. but when does it become really annoying?
when he says something to you, that could give you a lil bit of hope &suddenly pushes you out of his life. right where you STARTED. might as well not even move. coz i stupidly did, risking my poor, fragile heart. but this situation taught me to be stronger &true enough, i am. i FINALLY stood up for myself after so long. this is why it's so hard to trust guys. i'm so sorry if i had hurt you, made you wait for me. i just didn't know what to do. even friendship seems so hard for me now.
THAT'S WHY AHMAD THINKS I'M A LESBIAN, whatever.
xoxo
7:24 PM
