Spent the day with baby. Surprised him with a Bvlgari perfume (: I love you, baby. Let nothing happen to us.
Oh yes, by the way, I'm on defend of The Cocoa Trees since the melamine thingy has still not subside yet. Slowly, but not much. It's pronounced as meh-ler-meen, not meh-ler-mine. When I was on duty, one lady said this, "NO chocolates, got meh-ler-mine." & one time, a lady came into the shop and looked around, she took around 5 minutes? Then I asked her if she needed help. Her reply?
Oh no thanks, all these have melamine, (points to a Snickers bag). It's in the papers.
I said, we don't carry any chocolates from China or any bases from there.
NO! But it's in the papers!
Dangz. I knew that, I read. However, if any bases or chocolates were from the main source, we would've taken it off the shelf don't cha think so? I mean, we sell premier chocolates, we KNOW what we're selling. Why would we want to jeopardise our reputation, no?
Council interview was no comments. I have no comments. I really can't wait for tomorrow. :)
xoxo 8:16 PM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Gasoline.
My love's back! :D He came all the way to Terminal 2, awww :) I felt so over the moon. I missed you so much, baby.
Followed D & Hakim to City Hall since they begged me to. Well, Hakim did. &I U-turned back to Eunos. I wanted to alight at Eunos but I felt so bad, so yeeeaaahhh. Met Aly&Asyraf.
&now, I'm home. Tired. I'm very sleepy actually. Just that. I have council interview tomorrow. Oh boy, wish me luck!
xoxo 6:08 PM
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Intoxicated.
I've always pictured myself giving the head turn when someone calls me from the back while I'm laughing away with friends, just like those in the TV, smiling widely yet curious. And then next thing you know, someone who you've been expecting turns up. Same smile, no other expressions. A few seconds to digest and there you go. A gust of euphoria blows into the neutral smile. I want that feeling. I'm imagining myself doing just that when you come home.
3 more days. Just another THREE more days. You can do it, Sufie.
xoxo 11:21 PM
Please dance behind the yellow line. All the glitz and glamour. First dance. Bird's eye. Rehearse.
Chaos.
I had one of the most awesome times in my life when girls go crazy. Like, REALLY crazy. Let's recap! Like I said, I had the Ismail Haron's concert. Mmm, best. I was suppose to meet the girls at the CC at 9am. I swear, I set my alarm at 8am. I woke up, then I went back to sleep. Woke up again at 8.40am. Haha. I arrived at 10. Heh, got make-up and hair done. Practiced a lot! Over&over again to get my steps right. We set off for D'Marquee at 1.30+ We were suppose to be there by 2 coz the rehearsal starts at 2.30. Time wasn't waiting for us. As you can see.
Rehearsed. Made a lot of mistakes, I couldn't even count. Oh and by the way, I danced in my black heels which I swore never to wear for walking again and I wore it for dance. My feet were dying by the end of the show. But I only wore it for the first dance. Which involved fast turning and I couldn't stop in my heels and I wanted to fall. I was soooo scared for the real show. Alhamdulillah, for the real dance and all the fast turns, I did NOT screw up (:
Thankfully also, I didn't screw up much for the opening and closing dance. I only did 2 by the way. But I love the last dance, when I get the vid from Lenny I'll post it up kay? Alright. They catered Nasi Ayam Penyet and Nasi Lemak. What's funny was, they served Nasi Ayam Penyet for Lunch and Nasi Lemak for dinner. I thought Nasi Lemak was for breakfast? But I didn't get to eat, coz I wanted to go home already and my parents were waiting. I think also, I attracted alot of attention in a way that I didn't want to. It was kinda can't be helped. Coz I left in my tights and body suit and a shirt with my hair and make-up. Walked pass the foodcourt where everyone who just finished watching went to buy their dinner. Heads turned, eyes locked. Rushed out of the place.
Before the actual performance, and after our lunch around 5++pm, we (me, Lenny, Mairah, Ain, Bibi, Qurrah, Fiza) were asked to rush to buy hairpins, safety pins and stuff. So we walked to Watson's. Couldn't find what we wanted so we walked all the way to E!Hub. Took the lift and we posed in lift. When we went out, my feet got cramps and I couldn't walk and I fell down out of the lift. All of us were laughing! No one helped me cept for Mairah, oh you sweet child. But we couldn't stop laughing when we entered Fairprice. I guess, that we attracted ALOT of attention with our outstanding hair and make-up plus our uniform black bodysuit. In Fairprice, we were all playing hide and seek for I'm not so sure what reason. Hahaha, it was fun I tell you. Seriously, laughing so much with them. Hahaha and we concluded that by laughing, it helps you get packs. Hahahahaha! So whenever we laugh, we'll laugh harder thinking about it. Hahahaha.
Oh yeah, my parents were there for the show. But they couldn't watch me dance coz they were too far back. Oh well. We took a cab to a coffeeshop at Bedok Reservoir, 3 busstops away from home. Had my dinner, and walked home. Yes, after a looooong day, we walked home. Nevermind, exercise.
Woke up at 1pm today. Yup, I was tired. Still feeling the drill. Going Prakway with mummy later to buy new shoes. Haha. Okay, see you!
&&&&my dear, I still miss you.
xoxo 5:07 PM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Strings pulling from everywhere.
Left early from work again today. Going for dance soon. I'm rather, how you say, very scared. Tomorrow's the concert, by the way, I have NO idea what the steps are. I'm fudgen scared. So, I hope I can learn and memorize by today. DAY. Not NIGHT. Yeah, nobody really knows how I feel. But it's okay. I just don't like this last minute performances. End.
I miss you baby, 7 months 1 day (: I L Y V V V V V V M.
Alysha Insyirah, sorry luhh. Don't angry. At least I got to see you (: hehe. I know you want to see me. December okay? When I'm super damn free. Okay okay okay? I L Y V M T!
My schedule if anyone wants/needs to know:
21st: Ismail Haron's concert 22nd: I'm on break, hiatus. Don't ask me go out. Heh. 23rd-25th: Work Baby's coming home! 26th: Work & Council Interview 27th: Off. 28th-30th: Standard Chartered Marathon Packing Day
Wow. My whole month is all planned. Told ya I'm busy. Okay Ally? Don't angry luhhh.
xoxo 2:45 PM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
When the red light comes on, I transform.
This line you see, this line. YOU SEE? Sounds like, a red-light district line. When the red light comes on, I transform into a prostitute. I think the beat too short to fit the last 3 words. Well, it SOUNDS like. Obviously, it probably means something else, I mean the song IS called "Bad Girl" anyway. Can't possibly be prostitute right? All the lil kids hearing the song.. But I like the catchy rhythm though. Nice (: Ironically, I like the part when they sing this line.
So anyway, work is starting to put a toll on me. I feel old. Nah, I think it's just my shoes. I need to get flats. FUR-LETS! My heels hurt in heels. Gah! It's not even high at all. Can't be seen! But it hurts. Damn badly. Baby's coming home next week! Well, I'm working on that day too. Asked the Madam if I could go break later so that I can fetch him. Well, we'll see how.
I'm going for dance practice later. I'm tired. And I'm leaving early tomorrow coz I have rehearsal at D'Marquee at 1.30pm. Okay, I shall go bathe now. I feel icky after work. Ick!
I'm not just your average Princess.
xoxo 6:11 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
OH MY GOLLY! HE CALLED! HE CALLED! HE CALLED! :D
ALL THE WAY FROM CAMBODIA! MY WORLD IS SPINNING RIGHT NOW!
K BYE.
xoxo 10:13 PM
Intimacy.Honesty.Commitment.You.Me.Us.
My sincere apologies for my depressed, no life posts. My other half has just left for Cambodia. I'm so proud of him for he is doing something good there. And I seriously think he has grown taller (: yay him! Today's the 16th. I'll be celebrating anniversary alone. :( Nevermind, I love him still.
Today, my cousin got engaged. And my relatives were all busy in the kitchen, entertaining guests, leaving for the girl's house etc etc. It made me realise, how lucky the girl is. How I wish I can be in her shoes. Haha no, of course not. She doesn't get Adli. I mean, she's rich. Her family's filthy rich. So even if she doesn't get married, who cares.. Haha. I'm pretty beat from all the excitement and joy of today. Ahhh, time for me to kick back relax think about work tomorrow and my loved one.
Gooooooodnight.
xoxo 7:24 PM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Alone Once More.
Thank you for spending just one more day with me before you leave for another thousand miles. Thank you for the present. Thank you for smiling all the way. Thank you for making me feel safe. But now, I guess you have to leave again. I'll pray for your safety. I'll be waiting for you. And I'll never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever stop loving you.
On another note, I'm starting to have a heavy feeling that I'm going to procrastinate revising for Common Test March 2009. I really hope not, coz I wanna make it to year 2. I think right now, even in 2009, I'll be considered a Year 1 and a half. I'm gonna be having my Council Interview on the 26th. Rather nervous, okay, I'm more to afraid actually. I really hope I can make it through, but considering my results.. oh poo.
I'll be performing at Ismail Haron's concert, okay wish me luck!
I have red fingernails, did you know? Teh Katai. @ 8.43pm. I have red lipstick, did you know? My photography. NO SHIT! Don't lie. My photography. AAAAHHHH! The camera owner.
A girl on the streets flaunting her juvenile self. Oh please, I'm so over that. Goodnight.
xoxo 12:35 AM
The overwhelming ecstacy.
That feeling you get when you walk on water, that feeling you get when you fly, that feeling you get when you jump off a mountain, that feeling rushed through my veins when you called. Like a drug, you got me addicted to you. The withdrawal symptoms I had when I didn't have you. Finally, you're just a phone call away.
I deleted some links. The unused. The unnecessary. Sorry if it's you, but no wait, I doubt. I hardly link. But if you want, you can make advance booking. HAHA, no seriously. I need some sleep. I miss my love, I miss my love.
I keep thinking if I should delete my very old old old post. The ones in 2006/07. But then again, I like to read sometimes about what I went through during that period. I guess a blog is an alternative to a videocam with no surround sound and motion pictures. I like to read. In future, I'm sure I'll read it again someday. And think about what I went through, good and bad. But for now, I like to move on to the future. It awaits me. There's more to come in life, don't waste on the past. But there's one thing I regret about the past and I hardly regret. If anyone must know. I regret not listening to the one most important person in my life, my bestfriend. My bestfriend who was there for me trying to guide but I refused to take her generosity and kindness. I ended up wasting a perfectly good year. I'm sorry, bestfriend.
But now, I'm happy with the life I lead. Yes, I'm in love and I'm happy even if my academics don't score. I'll still try to be happy anyways. I love you baby(:
Okay, I really need some sleep.
xoxo 12:24 AM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Our playden.
I have finally proved to D that sometimes, things are better off not being narcissistic. I guess, on normal days, I wouldn't hang out with the crew if baby's not there. But yesterday was different. I'm not betraying him. It's just that, really.. from the bottom of my heart, I'm missing him like crazy and I suppose the crew would help me even for a day. And they did (: I hung out with them and the occasional missing my bf moments.
I was of course, broke. Woke up and realised no one's home. So I couldn't get money from my brother. Well, he came back home around 9+ in the morn. He didn't have money either. So my mum asked if I wanna have lunch with her. Of course I was delighted. I mean, how often does your mum pay for your lunch? Brother kindly went to withdraw money though. But I met my mum and all. Had Swensen's lunch (:
Walked all the way from Funan to NLB. In the drizzle, I found my way. Read a book while waiting for the others. Hakim arrived first. Thought Jaz couldn't join us but she did eventually. Hakim had KFC. Oooh, fattening Hakim.. So yeah, Waited for the rest. D, Hakim and I bought Panadol Cold becuse we weren't feeling well. Pitched in $2 each. Haha. Finally, Lyn, D and Jaz arrived. Walked all the way to Arab St. Jun joined us not long later. Jaz bought a bag for $10 at one of the shop. Awesome. Shall come back one day and get this super nice bag I saw.
Sheesha-ed. I was super giddy. Seriously. I nearly puked. I don't know why. All I did was lie down. But I felt better after an hour or so. By then we were all quite high. Quite. Cept for Jun who was watching Tropic Thunder on D's iPod. Okay, sorry Hakim but I've to say. Twice when the guy was changing the charcoal, Hakim took a long puff but no smoke came out. HAHA. And the second time he did that we actually warned him! But no, not even a minute later, he puffed. HAHA! C'mon Hakim, you okay?
I'll be performing at D'Marquee next week at Ismail Haron's concert along with Atrika of course (: And I didn't know about it until at night. And in the afternoon during lunch, my mum told me she won tickets for Ismail Haron's concert. Wow, what are the odds!
I think I'm following my dayangs to a certain someplace in the morning. Then go for practice at night and then perhaps out with cousins. Saturday is dedicated to my one and only(: who is coming home today! Yay! I miss you baby. Seriously. :(
Wherever you are, I'll never ever ever stop waiting for you.
xoxo 2:32 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Staring at the perserverence.
What made me happy for now? The Ellen Degeneres Show.
It doesn't matter where you come from, what matters is what you can bring to the table. So bring it.
Some people are just so pretentious. They put a lot of foundation, blusher and much eyeshadow so as to cover their pretentious face. They manoeuver their way into your life discreetly and download all your personal information. Well, guess what? You do it, I do it. Everybody does it. Don't pretend. Seriously.
I'm in need of your hugs.
xoxo 10:29 AM
Sunday, November 09, 2008
You lend, I borrow.
As clouds drift covering the baby blue sky, the thought of your arms holding me close drift like the clouds, passing by as a memory for now. You'll be a thousand miles away by tomorrow and when you come back, as long as I get to hold you even for a second, I'll be the happiest I could ever be. Because when you leave to be a million miles away, you won't be a million miles away in my mind.
All I can do for now is close my eyes, breathe and think of you. The thought of your loving kisses, your securing hugs just makes me want you more.
I'll pray for your safe return. :)
xoxo 6:29 PM
TiraMISSyou.
Tomorrow shall be the start of the day baby's gonna go away from me. Far away. :( I had fun last night even though it was for awhile. I'm gonna miss you badly, baby. I'm no one without you. Please come home safely okay? I still need you. Take care. &Don't forget me when you're there.
I love you, very very very much :)
xoxo 9:15 AM
Friday, November 07, 2008
Born to be the Mother Hen.
Back from camp (: SLE Camp was much different from the P5 and Sec3 camp coz it emphasizes more on leadership. And the K-P Model. Because the only 2 camps I went to was the P5 and Sec3, and they were led by facilitators of the camp. This time, its led by the teachers and the students.
In the camp, everything we did, made me more aware of the leadership qualities the teachers are trying to bring it out in us. Even the littlest things like, what I got to do only today, hahaha, was get everyone to sit in their groups. Coz Mr. told me to do so. So I think that he's trying to give me an oppurtunity in it. Yeah.
So, what I accomplished in the camp. Since I've done abseiling and NEVER done rock-climbing and the rope course. I decided to try. I didn't make it the first time I did rock-climbing. I didn't make it either the second time I tried. But I tried all the way to the near top the second time, so I'm rather(very..actually. just being humble(: ) proud of myself. Thanks to friends and teachers who gave me encouragement. (: Rope course was a challenge coz the wind was blowing in every direction(cheyy bedek ah). But I managed to complete it. Yayy me! Oh yes, I got the chance to be the belayer. Fun or what. (: And I got to do this night duty but I have no idea how to spell it. It sounds like 'century'. Hahahaha. Is it? I don't know. Not a camp person. Sorry lah, kental kan? No worries, I didn't see anything.
Baby was at the camp with me. But in different group. Campfire made me smell like barbeque. Haha. I absolutely adore my group. Really2. Maybe because ours only consisted of 9 future leaders(:, that's why we got to bond more as a group. We called ourselves Batman and during our group item at the campfire, 2 bats flew. Cool aye? Haha. We had the an Amazing Race at Pulau Ubin on Day2. Campfire was after that. So we had to wake up at 4am! had breakfast and took a bumboat to Pulau Ubin. When we reached there, it was still dark. We started the race at around 7am. Then we walked all the way from one end of Ubin till the other. It was tiring I swear and one of my teammates fell. So I helped her carry her bag filled with 2 1.5L bottles plus our food ration, for 2 checkpoints which are very far. Far, I tell you. I shan't complain coz I didn't know she felt that was coz I only had to carry my cute small bag which consisted of mostly...nothing. Okay lah, got personal medication like insect repellent all.
Lunch was our food ration which was unsatisfying. OH BUT NO! I am suppose to be on a no rice diet. BUT, for all the meals cept for the Ubin ration, we were given rice. The food was really good for a camp I must say but I ate rice against my will. But I only at like a small portion for every meal. Kay, now look at the palm of your hand, yeah, that's how much rice I ate. Really2. While others got big portions I tried to minimise my rice intake. I survived, didn't I? (: Okay, don't try it at camp if you cannot tahan. At home, when you're mostly stationery, you can.
Home never smelt sweeter when I reached home just now. Really! Because my parents changed the Airwick Automatic Spray. Now the fragrance nicer (: I can just stay here and smell my house. Haha, meeting friends later at 5+++ for dinner! You think I not tired? Cheh! You wait, I won't wake up tomorrow morning. Haha. Kay, I think I need to unpack. I've very dirty laundry.
Kamsamalongkung!
xoxo 2:39 PM
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Away; Inactive.
I'm so sorry for not updating. But I've been really tired. Working for the past two days so I didn't get to use the laptop coz by the time I feel like it, I'm asleep. Heh, I had a confidence speaking workshop just now. Much better than the one I attended in May. Although it's the same company.
From tomorrow till friday I'll be going for camp. So yes, on hiatus once again. Sorry! I miss everyone kay? Especially ally.insy & annisa. Yeah, I'll blanja you guys once I get my pay aite? InsyaAllah. Actually I'll think about it ah.
Baby's going awayyyyyy longer than me. :( Please remember me always. Gonna miss you more than ever. Ily.
I can't wait to go Malaysia and eat at Tony Roma's. Omg. I want my Tony Roma's barbeque sauce! BADLY! NOW!
The night sky never seemed more comforting than it is now.
Please dance behind the yellow line.
All the glitz and glamour.
First dance.
Bird's eye.
Rehearse.
I have red fingernails, did you know?
Teh Katai.
@ 8.43pm.
I have red lipstick, did you know?
My photography.
NO SHIT! Don't lie.
My photography.
AAAAHHHH!
The camera owner.