It's funny how you think you really know yourself.I think somehow I felt stupid. I think I was just having a really bad dream last year. It's a good thing I finally woke up from it. Or I could be really suffering, or so I think. I really feel I'm very lucky this time. Not a bad dream, or even a dream at all. It's definitely reality that most can't really accept. But somehow, it doesn't matter to me.
I'm glad it was over before anything else happened. I should've seen it coming. Stopped it before the heartbreak. I guess I was trying to hang on to every hope left with the strength I'm left with. All that my heart could take. However, all my strength wore out and I had to let go. Let go and find other hopes.
It is pretty hard to recover after all the strength that was put it. I thought I was lost. And then, I was pulled back again for another run. If there was no love, really, don't give me false hope. Just let me go the way you planned it. The way you wanted it to be. Don't say, "If you love me, let me go." Because you know why? I grew so attached to you that it was hard to let you go. Yet, to you, I was like a game. I lost, and you gave up on me. Game Over.
Lucky for me, someone managed to hold my hand and pull me back from that downfall. And don't make a mockery out of me. I don't blame you, though. I don't even expect you to understand. But I had expected you to respect. However, you disapppointed me. I'm not afraid. In fact, I'm proud to have someone who appreciates all that I do. All mistakes I did for the better of the relationship (not that it was intentional; or anything). Unlike you, I'm treated with the utmost respect that all human beings make mistakes.
By the way, I see you have changed. I'm glad you have moved on. Because I don't want you part of my future. It's not worth it. I'm putting my past behind. And that includes you. Good day.
xoxo
8:49 PM
